Nothing is better for you than your biggest failure.
I am soon going to encounter with such a big problem of my life that i may see the failure. I dont have the confidence or the belief of winning it, but sure anticipating the failure. its My marriage. I dont have faith in marriage relation, it is not the only relation which can make people to stay together and love each other…and have out most care for a life long time. If and all it happens to me, to get married than the only option would be……@!#$%^&*
I can only marry one such girl, whom i admire to learn things from her, to live and to smile for everything in life, and accepts things as they come to you. Should be practical, live in real world.
If this not happens, then i would better be unmarried and enjoy my own life to the max,and its true. There is no second thought for it. No one else can take that place if it is not my kind of girl…… If i fail to get such person, i feel nothing is better than that big failure of my life to miss her….Love yaa.
4 + and Counting…
My Stint @ iGATE has completed 4 years and Counting…
Love is to Express, its Never to Impress
I dont express things, as i have a fear of loosing those things that am enjoying in my life. I love to take care, love to pray for their well being, love to watch them smiling. Love to see them enjoying. I love to make their day, as long as they are with me. Am happy like this.
I believe in love at first sight.I am loving my mother, ever since i opened my eyes. I never build any relation stronger, because at the end of the day is story will make you feel pain. That is why i dont express. I enjoy the stint in every second i spend to see other happy in my presence. Nothing Much..!!!
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Be broadminded. Don’t make small things a big issue. Develop the habit forgetfulness and forgiveness. Do not complicate things. They serve no benefit to your self. Similarly for taking decision of anything a small matter or a big execution, don’t waste too much of time. Its now..or Never.
Every Second of life demands some thing …but my thought are always about one.
an hectic saturday.
The whole week before thsi saturday, i was busy with training the freshers. I was totally in trasition mode of knowledge. There was more learning and even more giving back to the people. It was a rare chance i got to handle all the 5 days of software construction sessions. The week was not just special because, i was teaching a 30 people and adressing at their queries,it is the morning and evenings i had during this period.It started with Monay and came an end at friday. I dont knew if a monday(Nov10) comes again.
The song of life is being sung and the notes go high some time and come low.It was my kind of tune which made me to start forgetting the wound time has made to me….monday. It is me, who knew the silence behind my voice and meaning behind my mischiefs.this week i found sleeping and forgetting are the 2 good things that god has given the humans a big boon to live with.
mmh
sunshine under showers…!
This weekend i was fully ripped to the max of my mischievous things. I did the similar things in april 2007. I went to Mohanram kaparthi’s marriage. It was raining early morning, with very little showers…tiny tiny drops of rain. I gave mu bike to service at CastrolBike Zone. The bugger didn’t do the service perfectly. He rather created some more. I got totally pissed off and gave it again to Yamaha Service in Somajiguda. Later in afternoon i started off to Kurnool for Mohan rams marriage.pavan has joined me in Imliban, where we got into a Hitech bus to set ahead to Kurnool. the bus has attained such a speed on NH7 that, the school buses…express bus…deluxe bus…tractors were over taking it.He took totally 6:30 hours to reach Kurnool. Late in evening we went to Dhone, the place where the marriage is arranged. I and pavan got into a Lodge there and had a terrific experience. The next day was mohan’s marriage. Other fellow igators reached Done by 10:00 am and managed to reach the auspicious moment of marriage. i made the max mess i can and totally rocked the place with all my naughty stuff. The height i reahced is that, the priest who talked to me in between chanting and performing the traditions, “has forgot what he supposed to dao after that…”
Every one liked it. We had lunch and set back to hyderabad along with other igators. It then started raining. This time it was raining cats and dogs. As it was night on the way to Dhone, i didnt got achance to see the sunflower fields. More over, i met a Musafir(passenger) who made time run like water…Sindhu……. 
In evening it was an awsome feast to eyes. Rain…Sunflower fields…Running train behind….surrounded by Hills…
Check the pictures on my Picasa. www.picasaweb.google.com/padmapraveen.vasili
the bride.. who told her confessions.
Secret… :-*
Go Close to nature…Get closer to your memories.
Whenever you have any leisure,instead of wasting your time by loitering here and there and roaming in supermarkets and malls, go to some places where you are close to nature like gardens,mountains, rivers..etc etc..
inhale fresh air there under sky,listen to tweeting birds,flowing breeze. I was there at a place yesterday, it totally took me to my past. I never recollected like this before. i really had a difference of spening time in malls and to very clean and quiet places.
….avoided complaining..
Some people have the habit of constant complain about everything happening around…This is not done…that is not completed…you are not like before….you have changed…its still pending…i don’t like that…this is not right…that is wrong…etc..etc…End less list. Their mind is always full of complaints about every thing else in world other than himself/herself. (Even i am not an exception to this….i am like the same.) If some expected job or activity goes beyond a limit due to some factors, they magnifies them and take their own decision about the event..with their perception.In fact, anything done well just doesn’t bother them.They forget the good things quickly, their emphasis is on Negative side of the life.( Once again me myself…) ONLY COMPLAINTS AND COMPLAINTS….and COMPLAINTS… Because of this attitude, they constantly remain under tension.this is because you can always make an endless list of lapses in any human performance since no human being is perfect.. Instead of constant bickering in irritation, you should bring about some changes in your attitude and response.First of all, learn to appreciate the good things around, and good things done by any person. Secondly, whenever you have to point out any shortcoming in a certain thing to a person, then point it out objectively, preferably in writing, if it is pertaining to the official work as if ..it is a natural thing and can be remedied.Do not become emotional about it…there should not be any personal grudge or ill will about that person. As i mentioned no one is perfect…after and all we are humans….as we know it..!!Humans are prone to error’s…..So to err is human ..to forgive is divine. So an attempt should be made to mend a person first by psychological means using behavioural skills. In case you have a complaint against some body, then only request instead of spoiling relations with he or she. Please..please remember that your purpose in this life is not to set various people right or to take revenge against bad people for their behaviour. Please note that how so ever bad a person may be, but confrontation and quarrels are never the ways to cross through him. To Get irritated over non agreeable person and situations is not an act of bravery and greatness. Anybody can do it. This is where, we human beings differ from other living things in this world.Our greatness lies in rising above such mechanical behaviour by asserting control on ourselves. While trying to maintain these, we sometimes even should be ready to face insults and compromise with the misbehaviour of others in the larger interest of getting a good work done…or considering their happiness and interest…. because that some ones happiness is important for us, than a differentiating person’s behaviour. We should also learn to set the things right by ourselves, instead of only bothering as to whose fault it is and who should correct it….if you want to see the good in this world…then start that good from your side first. You take the lead….you create that mark….you lead the way… Start learning and implement the same in your daily life…
mmH
Living Life one day at a time.
i have written some thing on the same topic earlier. I divide my life into a day each. when i think of my yesterday, it has many good things and sweet memories to cherish, but still at the end i will get to know what i missed yesterday which will totally pull the happiness i had. I never bunch them together at any point of time. shut out all yesterdays and tomorrows. Time will heal all the wounds it made, i am getting hurt repeatedly but know that the pain will vanish with time.The biggest loss ever i had in my life, demise of my father. The next bigger one is ……..mine. Before those 2 i feel there is nothing to worry about any loss. If you lose something, don’t worry or feel bad about it. If the thing,person,or even that one moment of life……..belongs to you, they will come back . Just wait….and keep on waiting…..in this wait, we need to still run our life as before. if we have problem, the it is for today to worry and work out. if you add yesterday’s problem and tomorrow’s worries for today, it becomes more unbearable. the burden will be very heavy for any human, where some time people tend to take very hasty decisions. if we focus on today, we will have clear picture about what to do..how to do…? we can put our mind without any distraction of past or future and get enjoyment out of it. when our mind moves simultaneously into past and future,it can not perform the present task well. I lost 2 things very recently,which i feel very special, one is my Love which i did in a wrong time and the other is chaitanya.
One thing is clear, nothing is temporary and nothing is permanent. everything is alive for this second only. Who knows what can happen after this very second.
mmH.
Honey…
The choice has been made, there is no looking back on this for any cost. I have stepped over the line. I accepted the change.
I won’t let up, i knew i dont have any back up, i won’t Give up or shut up. My focus is clear, My path straight…..i was happy because i was in Love…Now am even more happy….reason i did’nt expressed it.
am giving up my Biking for ever.
From today, i will have my bike as a local commuter for my daily needs. I am quitting out of XBHP.No more mid night drives, early morning long rides. Am giving up this for my dearest brother, even more than that a friend for me.
This is just for you, am giving up and sacrificing the hobby and interest of mine. This interest came into me and has grownup as passion all because of you. am still struggling very hard to believe this, and make my heart to convince that, he will not come for my emergencies. He is the emergency contact, i gave in office, not my family members. if all this life if i keep losing my belongings like this, there is no meaning to live at all. From now, i only wait for my turn. Two things are for sure, birth and death.The first happened 26 years ago.People cry only when they take birth, they go very quietly and calmly into the hands of death at the end.
His loss is very painful to me, am not able to digest this.This is very heavy in my heart.I not able to share this anyone.I lost a true friend i ever had. this is very hard to accept that he is no more for me. May his soul rest in peace. I pray the almighty give me ourage and strength to come out of this……i ran out of tears…..i have scarcity for words to express my feelings….. 
i hate of being alive today…
do you know the reason,why am still alive…… its just because to write these lines……today
what should i tell here, you left 22 year old friends, you left your wife,married 3 months back, you left all your dreams.yesterday we had midnight biryani, at the meal i urged you not to go as you will not have enough of sleep. Why dint you listen to me…..what did u got …..you reached what you wished to,You did what you want,But you did not completed what you promised to priyanka and your friends, You are now resting in peace, we are living with the pain.This is Totally unfair dude.This is not at all justice. But still we love you…we miss you….!
Article in the Hindu : http://www.hindu.com/2009/10/12/stories/2009101259350500.htm
had a very pathetic afternoon..pleasant evening
ohh ! a painful afternoon today. Today 2 of my collegues were leaving to banglore after their deputation. We planned to have lunch and spend the last few hours in city. We went to RTC X Roads BAWARCHI biryani. On the way my rear tyre got punctured…Bulls**t….i walked to a close distant to get it done. Then after a little bit of wait for the table at bawarchi, we finished the biryani. Ranjeeth gulped the whole chicken in this meal.Later we went to Prasads, we went for the similator movie and then to the Mirror maze.The misfortune is still behind me, I was having 700 in my pocket out of which there was afake 500 note..BullS**t….hmm waht next..is at GVK one, as soon as we entered the lounge area, the power got down. So over all, where ever i was been some or thepther went wrong.I got a GUCCI perfume there at GVK. I went to guest house to say..Bye to my collegues….i told preeti about my honey….
On the way i saw my friend, krishna chaitanya on the Hayabusa. We wished each other and asked about the day ride he had. Preeti was there with as pillion, so i could not go along with him. itook her to guest house. Later i was called up by kriss to have mid night biryani. It has been very long time, that we both had a mid night hangout. He told me the movie dialouge from manmadhudu,…”.
“”cinema ki nuvvu thesukoni velithey, cool drink vadu konipedthadu…..dinner ki nuvvu thesukoni velithey icecream vaadu koni isthadu…”"
This means, if he takes me on the Hyabusa, i have to pay for the dinner. we had very nice time at Ohirs, We get a special parking for the hayabusa…. we had a really good time, we spoke about a business he wish to start, about the hayabusa rides. and teh XBHP meet tomorrow….etc etc……Then at 1:30 i told him to call of his ride tomorrow,as he will be short of sleep.But he didn’t mind my words. he dropped me at home and went to his nest.
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