the bride.. who told her confessions.
Secret… :-*
Go Close to nature…Get closer to your memories.
Whenever you have any leisure,instead of wasting your time by loitering here and there and roaming in supermarkets and malls, go to some places where you are close to nature like gardens,mountains, rivers..etc etc..
inhale fresh air there under sky,listen to tweeting birds,flowing breeze. I was there at a place yesterday, it totally took me to my past. I never recollected like this before. i really had a difference of spening time in malls and to very clean and quiet places.
….avoided complaining..
Some people have the habit of constant complain about everything happening around…This is not done…that is not completed…you are not like before….you have changed…its still pending…i don’t like that…this is not right…that is wrong…etc..etc…End less list. Their mind is always full of complaints about every thing else in world other than himself/herself. (Even i am not an exception to this….i am like the same.) If some expected job or activity goes beyond a limit due to some factors, they magnifies them and take their own decision about the event..with their perception.In fact, anything done well just doesn’t bother them.They forget the good things quickly, their emphasis is on Negative side of the life.( Once again me myself…) ONLY COMPLAINTS AND COMPLAINTS….and COMPLAINTS… Because of this attitude, they constantly remain under tension.this is because you can always make an endless list of lapses in any human performance since no human being is perfect.. Instead of constant bickering in irritation, you should bring about some changes in your attitude and response.First of all, learn to appreciate the good things around, and good things done by any person. Secondly, whenever you have to point out any shortcoming in a certain thing to a person, then point it out objectively, preferably in writing, if it is pertaining to the official work as if ..it is a natural thing and can be remedied.Do not become emotional about it…there should not be any personal grudge or ill will about that person. As i mentioned no one is perfect…after and all we are humans….as we know it..!!Humans are prone to error’s…..So to err is human ..to forgive is divine. So an attempt should be made to mend a person first by psychological means using behavioural skills. In case you have a complaint against some body, then only request instead of spoiling relations with he or she. Please..please remember that your purpose in this life is not to set various people right or to take revenge against bad people for their behaviour. Please note that how so ever bad a person may be, but confrontation and quarrels are never the ways to cross through him. To Get irritated over non agreeable person and situations is not an act of bravery and greatness. Anybody can do it. This is where, we human beings differ from other living things in this world.Our greatness lies in rising above such mechanical behaviour by asserting control on ourselves. While trying to maintain these, we sometimes even should be ready to face insults and compromise with the misbehaviour of others in the larger interest of getting a good work done…or considering their happiness and interest…. because that some ones happiness is important for us, than a differentiating person’s behaviour. We should also learn to set the things right by ourselves, instead of only bothering as to whose fault it is and who should correct it….if you want to see the good in this world…then start that good from your side first. You take the lead….you create that mark….you lead the way… Start learning and implement the same in your daily life…
mmH
Living Life one day at a time.
i have written some thing on the same topic earlier. I divide my life into a day each. when i think of my yesterday, it has many good things and sweet memories to cherish, but still at the end i will get to know what i missed yesterday which will totally pull the happiness i had. I never bunch them together at any point of time. shut out all yesterdays and tomorrows. Time will heal all the wounds it made, i am getting hurt repeatedly but know that the pain will vanish with time.The biggest loss ever i had in my life, demise of my father. The next bigger one is ……..mine. Before those 2 i feel there is nothing to worry about any loss. If you lose something, don’t worry or feel bad about it. If the thing,person,or even that one moment of life……..belongs to you, they will come back . Just wait….and keep on waiting…..in this wait, we need to still run our life as before. if we have problem, the it is for today to worry and work out. if you add yesterday’s problem and tomorrow’s worries for today, it becomes more unbearable. the burden will be very heavy for any human, where some time people tend to take very hasty decisions. if we focus on today, we will have clear picture about what to do..how to do…? we can put our mind without any distraction of past or future and get enjoyment out of it. when our mind moves simultaneously into past and future,it can not perform the present task well. I lost 2 things very recently,which i feel very special, one is my Love which i did in a wrong time and the other is chaitanya.
One thing is clear, nothing is temporary and nothing is permanent. everything is alive for this second only. Who knows what can happen after this very second.
mmH.
Honey…
The choice has been made, there is no looking back on this for any cost. I have stepped over the line. I accepted the change.
I won’t let up, i knew i dont have any back up, i won’t Give up or shut up. My focus is clear, My path straight…..i was happy because i was in Love…Now am even more happy….reason i did’nt expressed it.
am giving up my Biking for ever.
From today, i will have my bike as a local commuter for my daily needs. I am quitting out of XBHP.No more mid night drives, early morning long rides. Am giving up this for my dearest brother, even more than that a friend for me.
This is just for you, am giving up and sacrificing the hobby and interest of mine. This interest came into me and has grownup as passion all because of you. am still struggling very hard to believe this, and make my heart to convince that, he will not come for my emergencies. He is the emergency contact, i gave in office, not my family members. if all this life if i keep losing my belongings like this, there is no meaning to live at all. From now, i only wait for my turn. Two things are for sure, birth and death.The first happened 26 years ago.People cry only when they take birth, they go very quietly and calmly into the hands of death at the end.
His loss is very painful to me, am not able to digest this.This is very heavy in my heart.I not able to share this anyone.I lost a true friend i ever had. this is very hard to accept that he is no more for me. May his soul rest in peace. I pray the almighty give me ourage and strength to come out of this……i ran out of tears…..i have scarcity for words to express my feelings….. 
i hate of being alive today…
do you know the reason,why am still alive…… its just because to write these lines……today
what should i tell here, you left 22 year old friends, you left your wife,married 3 months back, you left all your dreams.yesterday we had midnight biryani, at the meal i urged you not to go as you will not have enough of sleep. Why dint you listen to me…..what did u got …..you reached what you wished to,You did what you want,But you did not completed what you promised to priyanka and your friends, You are now resting in peace, we are living with the pain.This is Totally unfair dude.This is not at all justice. But still we love you…we miss you….!
Article in the Hindu : http://www.hindu.com/2009/10/12/stories/2009101259350500.htm
had a very pathetic afternoon..pleasant evening
ohh ! a painful afternoon today. Today 2 of my collegues were leaving to banglore after their deputation. We planned to have lunch and spend the last few hours in city. We went to RTC X Roads BAWARCHI biryani. On the way my rear tyre got punctured…Bulls**t….i walked to a close distant to get it done. Then after a little bit of wait for the table at bawarchi, we finished the biryani. Ranjeeth gulped the whole chicken in this meal.Later we went to Prasads, we went for the similator movie and then to the Mirror maze.The misfortune is still behind me, I was having 700 in my pocket out of which there was afake 500 note..BullS**t….hmm waht next..is at GVK one, as soon as we entered the lounge area, the power got down. So over all, where ever i was been some or thepther went wrong.I got a GUCCI perfume there at GVK. I went to guest house to say..Bye to my collegues….i told preeti about my honey….
On the way i saw my friend, krishna chaitanya on the Hayabusa. We wished each other and asked about the day ride he had. Preeti was there with as pillion, so i could not go along with him. itook her to guest house. Later i was called up by kriss to have mid night biryani. It has been very long time, that we both had a mid night hangout. He told me the movie dialouge from manmadhudu,…”.
“”cinema ki nuvvu thesukoni velithey, cool drink vadu konipedthadu…..dinner ki nuvvu thesukoni velithey icecream vaadu koni isthadu…”"
This means, if he takes me on the Hyabusa, i have to pay for the dinner. we had very nice time at Ohirs, We get a special parking for the hayabusa…. we had a really good time, we spoke about a business he wish to start, about the hayabusa rides. and teh XBHP meet tomorrow….etc etc……Then at 1:30 i told him to call of his ride tomorrow,as he will be short of sleep.But he didn’t mind my words. he dropped me at home and went to his nest.
want to know….what exactly I am..!
i always keep meeting new people, get close to them and after a while when the closeness grows more, they ask me about ..How i see the life.? I only say them….” nothing is permanent and nothing is temporary…”. Anything it is for this second and for this minute only. We can not get back the past second or that precious minute from any ones life. But the people never belive my words, they advice me to see things in positive perspective. I always feel to taste the acid of life, where others dream and hope for the honey-dew.
No one will win over this debate, it is all to their personal thoughts and opinions. What ever you do, What ever you plan to, What ever you like…..all for this day and this second only. That is the reason, i dont like planning things for the unseen future. Future is just a hope, which does not have a realistic feel or conformity. It is the proximity, it is dream. The past, its once gone is gone for ever. People will only have the frozen memories of the past. Everyone think to themselves and tell themselves that they will get to it tomorrow. They will have beautiful day tomorrow, They will enjoy the tomorrow, They will live tomorrow happy………hihihihi unseen tomorrow. When people are very much optimistic about tomorrow, which is not sure of, why can not do things today.
Anything to do, anything to enjoy, anything to tell,anything to feel… it is TODAY. Just Live for today, it could be the last one. Don’t wait for retirement, don’t dream of the uncertain future.
…. Do what you want now..! while you can enjoy it…. love every minute,Enjoy every second of life… Have smile on your face… Keep your place a world of funa nd joy..invite others to your world, where they smile,laugh…like tha twinkling stars in the sky…No one accompanied at your birth; no one comes along at your death. …Treat every one all alike and look at them from the same horizon…Be nice to animals, nature and Think of others, help the needy. Don’t hurt people. Love All-Serve All… Never forget your friends.
Cultivate and spread the habit of GIVING and FORGIVING. Avoid and kill the evil of GETTING and FORGETTING.
if You dont belive or trust my words, I will show you the people who accept my version and believe in this.I met some of them.
MmH…..
eyureka…..got drenched
After a week long i had a splendid evening with my friends. haricharan was here, and we met this time for an evening coffee break at Barista lavazza in 36 Jubliee hills. A couple of weeks ago, i, vinil and somu went to the same spot and had some nice time there. Yesterday, the same gang with out somu assembled for aget to getehr with our Vikas college directors. Sri Thummala Nagaprasad, M.prasanna, and rajasekhar sir. They are the visionary founder of Oakridge International school.
Oakridge is the first IB world school in Andhra Pradesh, running successfully for nearly a decade now. We are a complete international school with facilities to pursue any academic stream – Central Board of Secondary Education (CBSE), New Delhi, or UK-based University of Cambridge International Examinations (CIE) or the Switzerland-based International Baccalaureate Organisation (IBO) first to run its Primary Years Programme (PYP) in 2003..(Authorised in October 2004),visit the school website for more information.
All of them had a very nice time talking to all of us. Specially prasanna sir has invited all of us for a dinner treat and to visit the school once. He pointedly asked me to take the responsibility to make the meet happen on working weekend of the school.
We shared a lot. i expressed all the naughty and mischievous things i did in my intermediate. awesome evening with srinivas, principal of Gautam talent School, Mr Mahesh. and of course my friends, Vinil, Charan. Sharat, Bharat N Raj, Y.V ram. The same day night, i took ride on hayabusa with the new racing jacket i got. The jacket was gifted by krishna chaitanya.
Even today, i am feeling lucky. Becoz i got the search perfect in google @12:25 pm. …..MmH
No Road is Long with good company.
in my journey am bidding bye..to my companions at some point of time in life very often. all tough i keep meeting new passengers, the pain of the depart still keeps remembering me the people all the way of journey. That short memories are very sweet in nature.i recollected them yesterday.i knew it very clear, How far the destination could be, the journey has to be completed by you all alone…all alone….!!
Thing once lost are lost forever. and it is not true that, things happened / happening are for good. This is the fact i believe in -No better thing wait s for you in future…once you miss the best one now.
we met again.
After a pretty long time i met with my friends Charan,Somu and Vinil again. Charan came to india after 2 years from US. that fellow is working with Qualcomm and is travelling all parts of the globe. As the proverb says, How high the bird may fly, birds of same nest will meet at evening. The get to gether happened at AROMA in somajiguda. We have had enough of fun and joy, recollecting all the mischievous things we did in college. Venkatram, sarath and Bharat N raj,somu took the role of good listeners. Vinil and I broke out with all sort of topics at the table. We blocked a private room for the gathering,But at the end Bharat cracked some nose cutters to vinil’s words. We had good good party time and spent a lot of time forgetting the whole world behind us.We didn’t even remembered about the champions cup finals. haaa….after that, i dropped charan at our college director Mr.Y.Rajeshekar sir’s house…….and Good night…!! 
back to hyderabad
am now in hyderabad, started the day with a routene. I took a very long travel to reach hyderabad via Nellore,Macharla,Nagarjuna Sagar. i has some good time with my family. i was there after 5 months long time. Played with my little niece, went to see my brother’s would be along with him( not confirmed).I played FarmVille game at home, and gave gifts to my neighbours.Now i only have 22 coins and 10 FV with me. I really enjoyed playing it.i din’t felt that am at home town while playing that, it has taken me to my world. For a moment i thought on ” How to get back the things to us that were lost with time…”
i kept my self in re-searching it for a very long time. But at the end. i was clueless… 
@ my hometown..recollecting memories of my past.
The secret of happiness is to make others believe they are the cause of it.~~ Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass…it’s learning to dance in the rain.
I always dream and strive to LIVE my life, i hate the survivals. Life is all about living,not just survive.
Got a gift from some one i……and i gave a big bang surprise.
There is nothing to share here about this day.I kept everything safe in my deep heart. I got a shirt from my precious friend and i in turn didnt thanked, but i gave even much bigger surprise, which my friend can never expect to repeat in life again.Yesterday i had lunch @ shanbagh…..Nampally Station, sec’Bad Station, Chennai Express, …etc etc….ETC
at 3:52 in Naidupeta I took my road to home, leaving behind a feel of……….
Traffic on me
